WITH HOPE IN YOUR HEART

Welcome

I’ve been toying with the idea of doing something like this for a little while now.  In the past I’ve found writing a good outlet and I find it easier to be open and honest with thoughts and feelings.  I guess we just don’t communicate that much anymore, sure there’s a lot of shouting going on, especially on social media.  But, sitting down talking and sharing thoughts and feelings doesn’t happen that much. At least I don’t see it or experience it. I have thoughts and feelings I want to share and I plan to do that here.

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If you haven’t yet realized we lost our Beautiful Daughter Hannah in March this year after a relatively short and rough time with Medulloblastoma.  Medulloblastoma is an extremely agressive Cancer of the central nervous system and requires suitably aggressive treatment including Radiation and Chemotherapy.  She was incredible through the whole thing and we are so very proud of her.

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Unfortunately her Cancer was too aggressive and despite doing all we could it got the best of her little body and on March 17th 2018 we had to say our Goodbyes.

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I plan to tell you plenty about Hannah, our time with Cancer, the wonderful people who helped us and those who cared for her.  You see, and I’ve written this before, you don’t lose a battle with cancer. You defy Cancer by living as much as you can and pushing forward each and every day. Hannah taught us that lesson and it’s with this in mind why I am writing about her, and us, as we adjust to our new lives apart.

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My hope is through being open and honest with my feelings someone will stumble upon this and maybe be inspired by Hannah and something positive will come from it.  

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The title comes from the song ‘You’ll Never Walk Alone’ made famous by Gerry and the Pacemakers. I’m from Liverpool originally and the song is a staple part of the cities culture. For many it is a song of strength, solidarity, defiance, perseverance and determination. It is symbolic of togetherness and how through sticking together anything can be achieved.

I used to think the line, ‘you’ll never walk alone’ was the most important line. I’ve changed that view now. ‘With hope in your heart’ is key to getting through each day. Without hope, what is the point of anything? Hope fills your heart, leads to happiness, and despite grieving heavily for Hannah, hope is what keeps me going. I’m determined to hold on to that as tight as I can. Sure, never walking alone is important, but that is what gives you hope.

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I’ve heard the saying ‘It’s the hope that kills you’.  Wrong, its hope that makes it all worthwhile.  I hope you’ll stick around.